all these things and more

I am messy
d i r t y
lumpy, frizzy
u n c l e a n
unsure, insecure
overwhelmed
and p o o r
I have feelings
I regret to give
feelings I hold back
to keep my insides safe
and because I don't know
if I deserve to feel the
good
sometimes
I am all these things
and more
but still
I rise each day
I live beyond the limited expectations of my body
my gender, my ego, my age
I try
I create, and I love where and how
I can
I remind myself
that's more than enough
to call this a life
fit for grace