You can go through years
Years Like a ghost Never being touched Simply passing as an apparition While still body-bound on earth You might not even notice That your skin Has not been caressed Or brushed up against Or held in kind with a secure embrace You may even forget that you have A body Until one day maybe you are At a tattoo parlor And the artist is drilling a needle into your arm Your mind registers the warmth of your hand Under his armpit And your eyes fixate on his blue-gloved hand Holding your arm still He is touching you He is touching you with care He is being careful with you He does not want to hurt you He holds your arm still with one hand as his other drills the needle into your arm And this is the moment you remember How nice it feels to be touched And held with care You are really here Someone has caught you, stopped you And even though you asked them to Your years of abstinence from human contact Have made you micro-sensitive to even the most basic and even subtly more painful Forms of human contact This was a connection A needle to sew you Back into your body Remind you to take chances Risk your body (more often) In other (trustworthy) hands There you may find love Or Other forms of acknowledgement That you exist and are alive And be reminded How warm and comforting it feels to be touched and touch in kind. |
AboutHey! I'm Andie Bottrell, a multidisciplinary creative living in Springfield, MO. I share stories (autobiographical and fictional), poems, and other creative or personal musings here. Archives
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