what
have you to
hold on to
when
money flies away
and there are bills to pay
and you cannot ask for help
and your spirit's shriveling
what more
do you have to give
when you work twelve hour days
but still don’t have enough
to cover the costs
and your spirit is shriveling
and you’ve never been in love
and you are 28
and living with your mom
and your greatest dreams
have never come
and none of the things you were told about
came
and you’re actually trying to do it all right
and you’re failing, really failing
but still you keep trying
and you hope
and that’s all you have to hold on to
that at some point you’ll have weathered the storm
and you won’t have lost everyone and everything
in the process
and you’ll be young enough still to 
enjoy it for a moment
before you die 

moments are the saving things
that keep us together through the destruction times
moments of nice things
bath water
beautiful words
laughter shared
when you struggle not to cry and are seen struggling and comforted without asking, and without pity or even advice, just comforted because you are loved and deserve comfort in the trying times of life
nice moments when you go, GOD THIS IS BEAUTIFUL, THIS IS LIVING, 
THIS IS LIFE
THIS LITTLE MOMENT RIGHT HERE
THIS INCONSEQUENTIAL THING, INVISIBLE TO THE NAKED EYE,
UNDOCUMENTED IN HISTORY BOOKS
THIS MOMENT
GIVES ME 
HOPE
PEACE
LIGHT and 
LOVE

because, oh god, it’s tough out here
on this spinning blue dot in the black of space
and logic rarely seems to cure
the illogical terms of living here

(i still want) A Little More 
a new full length play by Andie Bottrell

(i still want) A Little More is a play in two acts with three characters (2F, 1M) that explores the line between loving pacifism and pointless masochism. It also examines our very human compulsion to constantly be seeking a little more of one thing or another for better or worse. Rul and Damen are writing partners. Damen and Silvia are married. Rul is in love with Damen. Silvia is pregnant and wants it. Damen doesn't. Rul wants love. Silvia wants new life. Damen wants control. Shake and watch it all explode!

Cast of Characters
RUL: (Rul rhymes with "cool"- something she’s never been called unironically) female,
24, wallflower, just wants a little more love. Thick Massachusetts accent.

DAMEN: male, 35, incredibly charming and calculating, just wants a little more time and control.Thick Massachusetts accent.

SILVIA: female, 35, a hard working teacher, stands her ground, just wants a little more family.

Scene
Boston, Massachusetts. Rul’s apartment & Damen and Silvia’s apartment.

Time
2012