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All the Unrequited Collection, Part Two

4/11/2013

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ME AND YOU ARE WHO
by Andie Bottrell

Who am I and
who are you?

I’m just a girl in
a black dress,
a black hat.

You are just a boy
one state over.

I tell you secrets,
I type them into
this machine.

You send me
sweet replies,
sometimes.

I am one, and
you are one,
together,
we would be two.

Together we
would be, too,
but we are not
together.

I am just a girl
in a black dress
and a black hat,

and you are
just the boy
the next state
over.
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FIRST DATE
by Andie Bottrell

constant nerves,
a jittering jaw,
this is
falling for you

there is nothing
I can do, but
wait, anticipate,
hate every word
that I let out
of my mouth,
regret any un-
flattering action
I let slide out
from under my
drunken watch

this is the day,
the morning after,
the reliving of a
goodbye kiss, the
evaluation of what
I would or
would not
miss

I wait for contact
from you

and at moments
these hunger pains
for you
overcome me so
strongly that it
gives me chills
and i feel sick
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WINE STAINED LIPS
by Andie Bottrell

My lips are still stained from the wine.

In between the smooth ridges
are harsh, deep red lines.

I love the severity of dark lips
on pale skin.

I feel sexy in it.

My hair cascading a mess
of curls upon curls,
reddish brown.

A furrow frown.

My curves feel
accentuated by the
exercises I’ve be doing.

And all this,
all this,
all this…

Yes, all this.

I keep to myself.

Afraid of your affection,
too sensitive to touch.
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ADDICTED TO THE PAIN
by Andie Bottrell

We are addicted to the pain.

So, you push me away
and at first I turn, but
then turn back,
and politely ask
for more.

At “No.”
my plea becomes a
simple soft spoken,
“…Please.”

At “Go!”
my tone picks up
the panic and runs
straight for the dagger
with “Please, please,
please, please, please!”

And I know where we’re
heading now but I can’t
jump off.

I’m tied to the tracks,
only there’s no actual
rope, there is only my
heart. My heavy, heavy
heart.

And I am here,
where I am not wanted.
And I wont leave, not
because of awkwardness,
or because of your insistence.

I will stay, and you will
grow to resent my existence,
and somehow I will
feed off of that resistance.

We are sick.
We are our own incurable diseases.
We eat off of pain, our 
broken hearts on a platter,
served with the best side dish
you’ve ever had.
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