baby girl

i want to call you 
            “baby girl”
    like you are mine
like we belong to each other

i want to call you
            period
    i want to have you at the tip of my fingers
        at a moments notice
    be able to conjure you up

i want to stand under you
    and feel your height
        i want to see that smile in person
            hear that laugh in person
        i want to touch your hands
    i want to make you feel 
the way i feel when i see your name come online

i want to know you
    i want time with you
        i want the opportunity to explore life with you
    
it’s looking more and more like i 
    will not get that

i’ll not hear you call me “darling”
    or create any more playlists for you
i’ll not message you again
    and you won’t reply to my last

occasionally you’ll like my picture
    and i’ll like yours to remind you
that i still exist
    and find you absolutely exquisite

oh, baby girl
    what could have been…

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