Cocoons

COCOONING
April 18, 2016

a weekend spent cocooning 
for no known reason
hiding out in twisted sheets
a metaphor for my twisted needs
loneliness visiting, but no desire
to reach out to cease it slapping me
comfort food and tv
sleeping more than i knew i could
from an exhaustion that just snuck up
out of no where to tackle me
bad feelings turn worse in this
tupperware of comfort
the morsels of guilty bacteria
turning to full blown mold
that spread across the articles
of cells that reach from skin down to
soul; speechless and dried out
i rode it out and come monday
morning's alarm, fought off every
excuse not to rise, to make it in to
work on time
10 buckets of caffeine and some peppermint
for sniffing...
ill be back up on the horse again

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COCOON
January 9, 2018

i was about to use the metaphor
about the caterpillar and the cocoon
the butterfly emerging

but i don't feel like a butterfly emerging
so perhaps i'm just starting to build
the cocoon

i know who i was
but i don't yet know
​who i am to become

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it seems i've been here before