i don't ask why

 i do not ask it why it must be done
i know it does       so deeply in my
subconscious there is no time 
for other thoughts to exist between
i m p u l s e ---> & --->  a c t i o n 
I MUST PAINT THIS NOW
even if i try to start
another endeavor -- more often than not
i look down suddenly to find
brush in hand and myself
dizzy from the missed conscious connections
between cognitive agenda and creation
i do not ask why, though, for I know
it is greater than i
the cosmos filled my soul with paint*
and at the slightest sparkle of the moon
the fairest twist of the tide
she can pull it out of me
to sate her buds
whether or not i consent
​to give

*paint = all creative arts i'm currently involved in