what i hope i am

​i don't always know what i am
i think what i am changes
i think that's normal
i hope what i am 
overall
on the majority
is kind
i hope the pain i cause
is minimal
i hope on the whole
people feel better
having encountered me
than worse
concurrent with that
i hope what i express
what i create
and what i say
and the way i live my life
is honest and true
that i put on no false airs
in pursuit of other's approval
the last pillar in this triad of hope 
that i hold for my legacy 
in my time on earth
is that i always seek growth
through hardships and celebrations
that i always find ways to do better
lord knows, there's always room for growth
and that while i pursue my own betterment
i also hold in that same hand the knowledge
that perfection is a mirage, and the pursuit of growth
can exist at the same time as the acceptance of
my humanity
if these three things are
what i am
then i can set aside all other concerns
of earthy possessions, accomplishments and 
worries over failings
and know that i have done my best
and that i have succeeded in the ways
that matter most to me